Had orchestra prac just now... The rest of the cellists pang seh-ed me!!!! I was the only one again... And this time we ran through "Pomp and Circumstance", a nightmarish song for the strings!!! Check it out at YouTube if you want. Goodness gracious, I somehow managed to barely survive. I thought I played real bad, but another commented that I have improved! So I was happy. (You can roughly know how bad I was previously.)

Ya I was BAD. Now better... But not good yet...

It's really all in your mind... I feel good each time I conquer every negative thought. Playing music takes more than just skills and techniques, it's a constant battle up in your mind... Well, at least for me. Frankly speaking, when I first joined the orchestra, I was 'tekaned' so many times... It was quite devastating. Once I was on the verge of breaking down during one of the practices... And sometimes I felt like giving up... But I kept telling myself to give my best now that I am in it...

Of course the first steps are the hardest. I avoided Charles for quite some time due to phobia... It's hard to believe how someone can be afraid of a non-living thing right. But ya, I didn't touch it. Looking at it made me damn sad. Ok thou shall not be emo~ Anyway, I conquered my fear!!! I played note by note with my piano cos I don't have a tuner and cello doesn't have frets. Practise practise practise... And ta da! I'm loving Charles more now...

So positive reinforcement works wonders. We wouldn't know when just one more practice will cause us to hit our threshold. (Don't know if it makes sense haha)

Ok anyway, if anyone has CPF of more than S$5000.00 and is interested to invest in it, please contact me. Collabrating with my Dad. =)